|oooh things happened!!
||[Nov. 30th, 2004|08:37 pm]
|||||mr brightside-the killers||]|
ok its been so long since i last updated but so much has happened!! ok so i was at the 21st and Paul was working til 10.30 so i had to wait a while for him to come and by the time he got there we were all fairly merry!! so Jenny started the infamous "ice-game"! the aim of the the game is to pass the ice around the group, with your mouth, until the ice has melted. so everything was going great and i was wathching the game in motion over the other side of the room when i looked across at Paul, and he came towards me. now i thought he had the ice, but he hadn't and he kissed me!! HE KISSED ME!!! i was dumbfounded all i could do was smile! it was the best moment of my life! so then we all went to nite clubs and Paul went to the bridge to meet his brother but was gonna come across to #1 after. but he didnt cos he lost Brendan(21st dude) so decided to go home cos he couldnt get in touch with any of us. i text him later and aked where did he dissapear to. he wrote back couldn't find Brendan etc.etc. and "gotta be lovin that ice game baby" i wrote back oh i know exactly what you did to me buddy! he wrote back "your the only girl for me" i wrote back i wish i could believe that he said "but do" then i said im 100% sure how i feel, but i dont think you are he said"i think your an incredible girl and i meant not to give you the ice straight away." i wasnt too sure what that meant so i said please dont mess with my head. he never wrote back so after a while i sent have i said too much? still no reply so after another while i said i take by your silence i have, sorry. i cried my heart out that nite and got no sleep and fell into work the next morning still really upset. Niall asked me what was wrong and i told him everything. he said just text him. so i did. are you talking to me? he wrote back "yea course i am i fell asleep last nite sorry" then we chatted bout the craic at the party then he said "i feel really bad for not answerin your calls. hope you weren't worried sorry pet" now pet is childish but he's never called me anything but Laura before so its a good sign. i asked could i meet him later to show him something.it was gonna be the "i meant not to give you the ice straight away" text cos i didnt understand it. but when i met him he never brought it up and i didnt want to either. nothing more was said for the week.
the whole week i was so upset. we didnt talk all week. i didnt want to text him he didnt text me.i saw him againurday and he brought up the fact that i had something to show him. i just changed the subject. then me Paul Jenny and Neville were all supposed to go to the cinema.Paul was broke he didnt go. i was gutted. then i went out sat nite and i didnt want to drink cos i was upset and i knew id be worse with drink in me. turned out i didnt need any to cry! i was so upset that i actually soberly cried in public. i decided to text him. i said sorry cos i got a bit annoyed that he was going to the cinema then he wasnt. and i told him i wanted to show him my something. he said"show me show me show me!! send it on a picture". i said its not a picture and it doesnt have as many exclamation marks as you may think. its been wrecking my head all week, ill forward it on to you. two long depressing hours later he text back"do". i sent it. he text back the ice kinda slipped to the side of my mouth but i dont regret doin it hell no." now i really dont remember any ice but how and ever! i said as long as you dont regret it. he said "no way id do it tomorrow if it happened again" i was nearly gonna cry again!!
we chatted for a while.then sunday i was gonna collect my jacket and hair brush from jenny cos i left them in her house.my Paul and another really loud and hyper Paul was also there. loud hyper Paul rang me when i left and he said he'd drive me home. when i was in the car, Paul rang my Paul and aksed him did he love me and would he like to have sex with me? i shouted and Paul said no comment and hung up. i was really thick but i didnt think that now i would be getting the silent treatment. im gutted but i did nothing wrong. i want to text him but i did on sunday and he didnt text back, so its not my problem anymore, the ball's in his court. but ha cant just kiss me, hear how i feel, tell me im the "only girl" for him and then just give me the silent treatment for something as minor as that. im still happy that he doesnt regret it and he may do it again1